i don’t know how i managed to ‘tahan’ for so long.. being able to keep my spirits high and all…but i think…i think… i’m almost near my limit…

had a sudden ‘breakdown’ of sorts today… cant even laugh when my friends made a joke..only managed to give a dry “heh” and a few forced smiles during the last 5 or so hours of work…

never felt sooo pathetic before… so useless…i keep disappointing the people around me it makes me furious

heck i cant even do a simple job right… a major WTF right there……

but its my off day today and tmrw… hope these two days will help me calm down and well..reset my tolerance lvl back to a more healthier lower range… AND… get my mindset back to the more positive side…

games should help…=D

the is THE SICKEST and THE MOST DISTURBING movie WITHOUT GORE..that  i’ve ever watched…

and ABIGAIL is the most screwed up movie character that i’ve  ever seen… brings a whole new meaning to “do whatever it takes to save your own ass”.. @_@

 

ah yeshhhhhh…finally got this album after waiting for soooooooo long…( somewhere arnd 2-3 weeks actually…ahaha)

now i know why there was a hype over “still life”. im only at the 2nd song of this album and its already taking top spot.

oh and thanks to seha and nis for sharing the shipping cost ^^

-expert orange peeler-

 

[Face of Melinda]

By the turnstile beckons a damsel fair
The face of Melinda neath blackened hair
No joy would flicker in her eyes
Brooding sadness came to a rise

Words would falter to atone
Failure had passed the stepping stone
She had sworn her vows to another
This is when no-one will bother

And conceded pain in crumbling mirth
A harlot of God upon the earth
Found where she sacrificed her ways
That hollow love in her face

Still I plotted to have her back
The contentment that would fill the crack
My soul released a fluttering sigh
This day fell, the darkness nigh

I took her by the hand to say
All faith forever has been washed away
I returned for you in great dismay
Come with me, far away to stay

Endlessly gazing in nocturnal prime
She spoke of her vices and broke the rhyme
But baffled herself with the final line
My promise is made but my heart is thine